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Just musings, lessons, accomplishments and realizations. I've asked myself why do I go back then forth on being here or anywhere in the community. Yet now I think i've learned from the cycles and it's changed lots within me. That it doesn't make me any less and it's proud of me for realizing, learning, integrating those lessons. There are some things only you can learn ,acknowledge, and discover what's inside I am grateful and thank you force for helping me grow into a stronger me. I'm so happy I got to accomplish my dreams and now I get to have more dreams come true. I continue to hone myself, my goals, and get my stuff done. I'm a 2 times martial arts hall of fame nominee. I"m a rising DJ who knows her shit and has something inside that makes me stand out. I feel more at peace with myself and my emotions. Peace is a lie because life isn't peaceful al the time however conflict is also temperary because it's part of our evolutionary growth. You need all aspects of the force and to acknowledge the whole of the experience.

What is a Jedi to me? Someone who takes responsibility for their emotions, no matter how justified they believe they are in feeling them. Someone who takes responsibility for thier actions, even when no one is watching. Someone who will encourage anyone who needs it, even if that person is not well liked. Someone who will defend weaker persons, even from themselves, with action if necessary. I've always had trouble with doing "the right thing". Drug dealing and addiction left a behavior pattern in me that was not easy to break, nor is it easy to keep at bay. Struggling every day to keep my own selfishness under control and teach 5 children to do the same, had left me with a feeling that it was impossible without outside intervention. After studying and discussion, I knew I had to cultivate my own strength, my own discipline, to move forward and break the hold that I had allowed selfishness to take on me. I had to learn that "doing the right thing" is not an action, it is a decision. A Jedi, to me, is a person who practices selflessness in everything they do.

As you begin your journey, consider carefully as you make your first entry into your journal. We would like for you to explore your feelings and understanding of the following questions: What is the Force, and what is your connection to it? What does it mean for a Jedi to maintain an open mind, and why is it important? What is the Jedi code, what do the parts mean, and how does it apply to your daily life? What is a Jedi, and why are you striving to be one? Contemplate, meditate on these questions and explore what it is you seek on your path as a Jedi.